Closure

I think I needed these past 7 months to sort out a lot of repressed emotions. I feel like I've come to a closure and may make this my last entry, or at least few and far between.

I feel like I've worked through the anger and have developed a healthy outlook for my life. Unfortunately, my parents have yet to acknowledge my concerns in our relationship. I felt like I had poured my heart out to them in my letter and never received a response. My sister convinced me to have dinner with them about a month ago and that was awkward. They acted "surface" as usual. No conversation that penetrated anything more than television or day-to-day matters. We haven't spoken since.

I am elated that this time next week I will actually be with my daughter! "K" and I spoke a few months ago and decided it was time to meet. I have been blessed with an amazing adoptive family. We have all been conscious to keep "H's" well-being the foremost concern. "K" said she is very excited about meeting me. She's 8 years old and has known since the beginning about her adoption.

At first, I was very scared. The closer it gets the more that has turned into excitement. Life is going well. I feel a sense of peace. I am getting the chance to meet my daughter and hopefully develop a lasting relationship with her. I am still saddened by my parents' behavior, but I know I've done all that I should do. I poured my heart out to them and received nothing in return. I'll keep the line open, but they'll be the ones that have to make the effort.