Lifted Spirits
i must say- if any mother ended up with a perfect adoptive family- it was myself & my daughter. i've never had issues with them. "k" and i get along so well- even though she is old enough to be my mother (i'm sure she'd hate to hear that)- i think we could have been really good friends in another life. i'm sure one day- when "h" is old enough to be her own person & understand the situation- we'll have that opportunity. we're very forthcoming with each other, we make sure the other is doing well, we have wonderful talks. she always lifts my spirits & i make sure to let her know that.
i talked to her last week shortly after christmas. i also got to talk to my special someone- who i could tell was very nervous & shy- so i didn't keep her on the line too long. but she made a point that she did want to talk to me- of course it was mostly heavy breathing & an occasional spurt of recent events- so i tried to coax her the best i could & let her know that i was very happy to have spoken with her. "k" and i had our usual 2 hour conversation that seems to fly by so fast. it always feels like we could talk for even longer. "k" mentioned that she may be coming this way in a few months on business & that she'd try to meet up with me for dinner. that would be an amazing event- but i'll keep my enthusiasm until i know its a sure thing. don't want to build myself up for a fall.
she also mentioned that "h" was very interested in meeting me & when we are in their area on our vacation planned for next year- that they would like to meet for dinner & spend some time. so my spirits are a little higher than in recent months- at least with the adoption issue. there is a possible window in the near future where i could actually have a reunion of sorts. i've dreamed of similar situations for 8 years. i'm going to keep my mind even-kilter until then. i don't want to work myself into an excitement for something to fall through. my fingers are crossed though.
as far as my parent situation- i'll save that entry for another day....
i talked to her last week shortly after christmas. i also got to talk to my special someone- who i could tell was very nervous & shy- so i didn't keep her on the line too long. but she made a point that she did want to talk to me- of course it was mostly heavy breathing & an occasional spurt of recent events- so i tried to coax her the best i could & let her know that i was very happy to have spoken with her. "k" and i had our usual 2 hour conversation that seems to fly by so fast. it always feels like we could talk for even longer. "k" mentioned that she may be coming this way in a few months on business & that she'd try to meet up with me for dinner. that would be an amazing event- but i'll keep my enthusiasm until i know its a sure thing. don't want to build myself up for a fall.
she also mentioned that "h" was very interested in meeting me & when we are in their area on our vacation planned for next year- that they would like to meet for dinner & spend some time. so my spirits are a little higher than in recent months- at least with the adoption issue. there is a possible window in the near future where i could actually have a reunion of sorts. i've dreamed of similar situations for 8 years. i'm going to keep my mind even-kilter until then. i don't want to work myself into an excitement for something to fall through. my fingers are crossed though.
as far as my parent situation- i'll save that entry for another day....
posted by bobby @ 3:02 PM
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